Success is returning...

I've finally broken the lowest I reached before Easter when I started to really screw myself over again. I'm quite happy that my clothes are looser but I am sad that my hideous face isn't getting any better. I am going to make a Drs appointment for next week and hopefully he can get me on something...anything to help me. Problem is that I'm scared it will be birth control which as you all know has an annoying tendency to cause some women to GAIN weight. So I will hammer. home my attention problems and cross my fingers for adderall. Perhaps that could counter the weight effects of birth control. We'll see.

Song right now: What I've Done by Linkin Park

In this farewell,
There's no blood, There's no alibi.
'Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth, Of a thousand lies.

So let mercy come,
And wash away...

What I've done.
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.

Put to rest
What you thought of me.
While I clean the slate,
With the hands, Of uncertainty.

So let mercy come,
And wash away...

What I've done.
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.