Surprisingly enough, hunger doesn’t hurt anymore. The simplest things I am finding satisfying. I might’ve binged slightly last night on the food my mother made, but I more than made up for it by burning all those calories at the mall today. I come out ahead either way. Today all I had was my salad and a bag of those 100 calorie shortbread cookies. Seriously, I think those are my weakness….those and Junior Mints.
I’m bound and determined to lose at least ten more pounds by thanksgiving. Tomorrow morning I am going to weigh myself and see where I am at. Hopefully, I’ll be nearing my goal for the month. The only one who has made a comment so far on my weight loss is my aunt when I went to visit her last week. I was only down nine then. Plus, I hadn’t seen her in months, so when I start getting positive feedback from those who see me the most, then I will start celebrating. But I won’t celebrate too much as I have a long way to go. I want to be happy when I look at myself in the mirror. All I see now, is a bit of progress. I’ll take some photos tomorrow to document my ten day difference. I am hoping that I’ll eventually have such dramatic results one day, possibly by the end of the year that I’ll be able to put up the pictures to show my transition.
Today I walked over nine laps at the mall in an hour. While my muscles ached a bit afterward, the speed and length of the walk felt so good. I felt like I could go another few laps. Listening to great music helps too. I also find that I window shop a lot and mentally picture myself in the beautiful clothing in the displays as I walk by. That is my thinspiration during my walks. I tell myself that I will look good in those clothes one day. Being thin is all that matters now.
Currently, my goal is the skinny jeans I just bought that are a size too small. Yes, I did that on purpose. I want cute knee high boots to go with them. I am hoping to wear them for Thanksgiving. Wish me luck. If I keep on with my current progress, I think I’ll make it.
Song right now: Careless Whisper, cover by Seether
I feel so unsure
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
as the music dies
something in your eyes
calls to mind a silver screen
and all its sad goodbyes
I’m never gonna dance again
These guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it’s easy to pretend
I know you’re not a fool
I should’ve known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I’ve been given
So I’m never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you.
Time can never mend
The careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mind
ignorance is kind
And there’s no comfort in the truth
pain is all you’ll find.
I’m never gonna dance again
These guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it’s easy to pretend
I know you’re not a fool
I should’ve known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I’ve been given
So I’m never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you.
Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it’s better this way
We’d hurt each other with the things we wanna say
We could’ve been so good together
We could’ve lived this dance forever
Now whose gonna dance with me?
Please stay.
I’m never gonna dance again
These guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it’s easy to pretend
I know you’re not a fool
I should’ve known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I’ve been given
So I’m never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you.
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