Strggling...

Writing keeps me occupied. I am so glad I bought a nintendo dsi last night. Now I can update anywhere with a wifi connection. That makes it so much easier to go onlineand seek support whenever I feel weak like I am going to give into temptation.

Tonight is especially rough because its my dancing night and I always break down and order food when I get there. Somehow I manage to convince myself that I ordering something low calorie when I know thats far from the truth.

If I can be strong today and resist food then I will be extremely successful considering my hour of power walking and all the calories I will burn while dancing.

Since I am updating from my dsi I don't have photos o upload. If you need inspiration, check out my youtube vids at youtube.com/user/findingperfect . At least I think thats the address. If not, just look up my user name findingperfect

song today: golden by fall out boy
How cruel is the golden rule?
When the lives we live
are only golden plated.
I knew that the lights of the city
were too heavy for me.
And i carry karats for everyone to see.
And i saw God cry in the reflections
of my enemies.
And all the lovers
with no time for me.
And all of the mothers
raise their babies
to stay away from me.
Tongues on the sockets of electric dreams.
Where the sewage of youth
drown the spark of my tears.
And i knew that the lights of the city
were too heavy for me.
And though i carry karats for everyone to see.
And i saw God cry in the reflections
of my enemies.
And all the lovers with no time fo me.
And all of the mothers
raise their babies
to stay away from me.
And pray they don't grow up to be...